In "silent" meditation, a vivid image keeps consuming my vision: free of garments, in a space in darkness, and belonging and holding on to absolutely nothing. The feeling of bliss exists somewhere but even that can't be held on to.In reality, the "energy" for me, also known as the guide within, or Kundalini Shakti, is loud, booming, piercing and fiery, manifesting as a painful searing pain in my heart and lower back. She is asking me in my inner space to "let go." It is echoed in every inhalation and exhalation. I'm sharing my journey into transformation which seems to be inviting me into a lifetime shift and cannot be ignored. 

As a young person I still envisioned having a life that was really centered around myself and me only, doing what I want and having it all for myself. So what was it about Blue Star, a community-based organization, that pulled me?